I’m Sick of Improving Myself

Or maybe I’m just obsessed with it.

Fasting. Meditation. Cold showers. Waking up at 5 am. Waking up at 4 am. Extreme fad diets. Putting supplements in your supplements and optimizing those supplements with other supplements.

Parading your discipline around for attention. “Reading” a book a week. Guru worship. Tai-fucking-Lopez commercials. Glorified sleep deprivation. Calling depressed people lazy. Online courses on everything from business to dating to self-confidence.

And of course, those stupid fucking motivational memes about lions and sheep and “sheeple” with quotes claiming to be from Marcus Aurelius.

Maybe I’m late to the game, but fuck all of it.

Why is something always wrong with me?

Why are “gurus” playing on my anxiety when I came to them in the first place to fix my anxiety?

Is any of their advice even real? Is it all… bullshit?

I am not anti-self-improvement, at least I don’t think I am. I’ve read plenty of books designed to improve my life, I’ve listened to Tim Ferriss and Jocko Willink podcasts, and I’ve even bought online courses to help me “get my act together”. I even got value from some of it.